Hello She Love Hers’
Yes, a hiatus.
Yes, two weeks.
No, you shouldn’t be that surprised.
While riding the train this morning, I thought about what I would write this week and why I haven’t written in the past two weeks.
I then realized that I do need a break from everything, every now and then.
I’ve committed my life to service, friendships and love.
These things can leave a person tired, empty, under-appreciated at times.
Mostly I feel full, happy and still tired.
This post today is about creating the time to take care of yourself, love yourself and be still.
But, I want to rewind back to an event two weeks ago that lead me to this revelation of sorts! It was a regular Tuesday morning commute, I was feeling quite good, actually on my way to being on time for work when… I fainted in the elevator of the 1 train station. No, that is not a typo or an exaggeration. The EMT, fire dept and a very kind woman, Melissa ______ saved my butt!
Now this may not seem like a big deal and I’m a confessed worrier.
But this single experience has somehow defined the last two weeks of my life.
It has given me this awful, self-fulfilling prophecy of thoughts in my mind:
Will it happen again?
Is it happening now?
What if I’m not so lucky next time?
Why did it happen?
As much as I try no to worry about the ‘why’s and what’s’.
I find myself worrying even more.
Last night however something started to occur to me, this event has forced me to slow down and make better decisions for myself. It has forced me to stop people pleasing, friend-pleasing, girl-friend pleasing.
All these folks are OK without my support, and now I need to be OK, actually I want to be GREAT!
So, this is a rather odd train journal. But by now you are fully familiar with my disclaimer below.
Let’s toast to GREAT Health and taking care of oneself!
Note: Train journals is literally that, my morning thoughts before I start my day. The post maybe grammatically incorrect, and literally not make any sense but it’s a free-writing zone and the only time I don’t edit myself on this blog. The posts are to be taken… however it feels for you. If you happen to derive some useful information, rock on!